Dripping Rainbows

2012

2012-01-03T00:33:00.000-08:00

For some reason I'm super excited for 2012, something tells me it's just going to be a good year :) ...or I could just be horribly wrong and everything is terrible this year, but I'll look on the bright side :D

A reflection on 2011 says that I could of done things better, so now I'm determined to do things and live life the way I want to live it.

So the aim of this year is to end it with no regrets (or as few as I can have) and make myself a better person for myself :D I guess you could say that this years focus is, well, about me and becoming someone who I love and don't regret! :D

I finally realised that I have to stop relying on everyone else to get me where I want to be and that the only person who can get what I want is myself. Knowing that I only have myself to rely and think about, gives me some piece of mind and makes me... happy? :) It means NO MORE CRAP FROM OTHER PEOPLE! And it's time to grow up :D

2012: No more regrets!

:I

2011-12-20T03:46:00.000-08:00

They're all fucking crazy and insane.
GET. OUT. NOW.

Up up and away!

2011-10-28T19:14:00.000-07:00

I've been swept off my feet :)

Lalalala

2011-10-14T19:48:00.000-07:00

Knowing that a majority of your friends are happy and have the best you can get in life, makes you happy too :)

H is for..

2011-09-24T05:51:00.000-07:00

Happy!! :) It's that feeling when a burden has been lifted off your shoulders and you feel so light and airy :D

When you're past the stage of being blindly in love and you realise that you've fallen for someone who you know will always look after you and will do anything for you no matter what, life is easy :)

(>")>♥<("<)

Sad sad sad

2011-06-03T07:49:00.000-07:00

and its my own fault too

what do you do when youre so confused????

Um...

2011-04-24T08:40:00.000-07:00

...sometimes one of the hardest things to do is to let go :)

so let go

let go

let go

the only one holding me back is myself!

Cookie monster can eat away the rain :)

2010-07-20T06:48:00.000-07:00

Today it poured with rain and today was also the day that i decided to leave the house after 3 or so days of not going out... yay for me.... basically my pants and shoes all got wet (not just a few drops, more like someone had dropped a bucket of water on me), to the point where it felt like i was walking in a permanent puddle :( but vick made this whole day super awesome!! :D:D look out world, we have plans.. like BIG plans MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA. we are going to be one of those people that other people go "omgosh look! its them!!" :D:D some day, some day.. we got to start small first.. like start small as in a cardboard house :D

anywayyyyy vick baked cupcakes for me :D:D which were totally awesome and unexpected and the photos below demonstrate how crazy and amazing they were :D and they werent just normal ones, THEY WERE MINI!!! which makes them even more tasty and exciting to eat :D:D:D

so, for now, the rainy days have been conquered by mini monsters :D:D:D these were truly the highlight and happiness of my birthday so thankyou for that wicky wicky, best surprise ever :D:D:D

and emporia, if you dont end up opening your own SUCCESSFUL AMAZING VICKIES SUPER AWESOME cake store, well, where will i get my future cakes from (..and get my future job from.. hint hint XD)??! :)

love love love :D

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Lots of love:

2010-07-17T04:30:00.000-07:00

I love my friends!

I don't think I tell them that enough :)

OK GUYS...

2010-05-29T08:39:00.000-07:00

...this might sound crazy, but i think i can tell the future or control it or something like that!! O.O ...spiffy! :D

Disgusting Cakes

2010-05-09T02:02:00.000-07:00

Some people are just sooooo gross...

and another thing... real wedding cakes taste disgustingg!! especially fruit cake ones. they may look pretty and look like they taste good on the outside, but the truth behind all that icing is that the actual taste is pretty much "....wtf am i eating??!". all my hopes and excitement for an insanely awesome tasting and looking wedding cake were totally dashed after i had some yesterday and it was just blehhhh.. vomit.

soooo if i ever do decide that i want to settle down and get married, im going to have an icecream cake from Carousel with the little chocolate cookie bits and the gel icing to decorate it :D:D not that gross marzipan or fondant crap they put on wedding cakes.. so what if it lasts longer with all that icing and ferral cake?! i would rather have a cake that everyone actually enjoys the taste of rather than just having it for looks and guarenteed longer lasting abilities. so go suck on that you cake makers who continually make disgusting cakes >:(

also, if i ever become a cake maker, i will ensure that my cakes not only taste awesome, but they look freaking amazing too... thus, ensuring i have an amazing amount of business on my hands = me getting rich MWAAHHAHA!!

anywayy, i swear, Carousel is my favourite of all favourite places to get icecream from :D:D:D:D but i wish i got to go there more often :(

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Just a thought

2010-05-07T05:01:00.000-07:00

Source: http://tomek-manik.deviantart.com/art/Question-62319003

There is something nice about being naive and oblivious to things.

And im not saying that im smart or anything, but i wonder if people who are not that smart really have better lives than people who are smart?

im so so so so socially deprived right now :(:(

AHHH

2010-05-01T07:12:00.001-07:00

MAJOR WORK OVERLOAD... i didnt realise how behind i was getting :(:(:( so for now im going to have to put my social life away and focus.. urghh.. easier said than done D; i find it funny how i now completely disappear from everyones' lives during the semester then suddenly re-appear when holidays start again XD HAHA XD i cant wait until semester holidayssss!!!! but damn.. i enrolled myself in winter term.... WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF!??!?! plus i wanna try take a third year subject in second semester :S

anywayyy other things that i really really want to do but dont have the time to is make myself a pair of domo gloves :D kinda like the ones above, but id do mine differently and more awesomely :) i can already see how im going to make it, too easy!! andddd i also want to make myself a stuffed toy that is a cat lying on its stomach and its really really fat and has short stubby legs and the face of those white asian lucky cats with the moving paw and it looks like its so fat that it physically cannot walk.. thus why its lying on its stomach :D this little project wont be as easy as the domo gloves, but im still going to try! if only i could work out how to sew it all together =.='

something that i did today: i watched the brady bunch movie.. and have you ever found that you turn on the tv and its on some really bad show and you just sit down and watch it till the end. then you realise you just sat through a really bad tv show and you didnt even realise it. well thats what happened to me today when i sat down with my rice bubbles and milk and on-ed the tv and it was on nickelodeon and Zoey101 was playing... yet for some reason i just watched it. ohh the shame i felt when i realised what had happened. but anyway, back to the brady bunch movie. it is the most stupid thing ever. they are so urghh that even i want to punch them out! its just like.. wtf is wrong with you?!?? but hey, atleast they dont really exist... or do they....? O.o"

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Origami for peace of mind!

2010-04-27T06:30:00.000-07:00

Shades of grey :(

I feel like a closed down and abandoned shop- no one knows what is inside.

im wasting my time right now:

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Wisdom teeth and Lloyd

2010-04-15T18:38:00.000-07:00

got my wisdom teeth out yesterday XD not as bad i thought it would be, though im totally tripping out on pain killers right now @.@
one question, why do they call them wisdom teeth when obviously they only cause pain and suffering?? -.- i think they should think of a better name because i really cant see how they give you any extra wisdom what so ever... just more money in the bank for mouth surgeons, right??

I CAN FEEL MY STITCHES.

another question, why is lloyd spelt with two 'l's? i bet someone wanted their name to look better so they put two Ls instead of one, because i guess loyd does look boring without the double L. soooo then if my name was spelt like this: "llai-ling" ...it doesnt look cooler.. damn.

Find your happy song :D

2010-04-05T08:34:00.000-07:00

okayy im kinda better now :D:D andddd i found a song that makes me smile for some reason that im unaware of yet :D :D :D Forever Yours by Manny X :) maybe this song will make someone else smile randomly too XD yayy! i feel happy right now XD ~~~ though the end of the song is kinda an anti-climax and the song doesnt really go anywhere, but it has a nice uplifting beat yaaa?? :D I EVEN FOUND THE SONG WITH DOMO AS A BACKGROUNDD!!!!!! meaning it must be a totally awesome song ;D
anywayyy i feel like dancing my ass off! i must get some clubbing into the mix before uni starts *wink wink at a certain someone that starts with v and ends in e* :D :D

HAHA XD for some reason i love food with faces on them :D

theres heaps more pictures of these all over the internet :D and one day i want all the food in my meals to have these kinds of faces on them! XD HAHAHAHAXD ...seriously :P at the moment, that would truly make my day :D

"Lets go to a placeee, Far awayyyyy~~~~~"

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Major bummer

2010-04-04T03:22:00.000-07:00

soooo its holidays, what a better time to get sick right??? and i had all this stuff planned and i was super excited to be able to catch up with people :( oh well, hopefully ill get better by tomorrow :/
the only two things that i want to eat and that i think i can stomach right now are orange juice and apples... which are also the only two things that i do not have in my house AND ALL THE SHOPS ARE CLOSED :(:( so i have not eaten all day D;
this suckss, i need a 'get better soon' hug :(:(:(

I FEEL SICK

2010-03-29T06:11:00.000-07:00

GAYYY!!! i just realised that the night before a submission, i always get sick :( supposedly its because of the stress, even though i dont really feel stressed right now, i just feel like chucking D: all this stuff that i have to submit is also the reason why i have currently disappeared off the face of the planet, if anyone is wondering where ive been lately XD this never used to happen and the work load is not as much as year12 stuff! so why do uni submissions affect (..effect? when do you use affect and when do you use effect? XD) me more??? :( :( :(

APPLESSSS!!

2010-03-19T05:24:00.000-07:00

ive been getting pretty annoyed at certain people lately and i feel bad about it, but, then again, i dont XD or maybe im just very pms.. and craving apples.

anywayy, yesterday something happened that made past fears appear yet again..... i know it shouldnt affect me, but i cant help it! and its also that everytime the problem gets better it takes about 3-7days to get back to the point that it was before... or worse. so theres no point in saying anything about it anymore since it just goes in one big circle. soooo i figured that maybe i should just sit around and maybe ill get used to it or maybe ill get to breaking point and im pretty sure i know what will happen then. i know i should not have to feel this way, but then i feel like im being selfish and there has to be some give. so what do you do when you have a problem that keeps coming back no matter how many times you have conquered it?? arghhh! frustrating!!!

also, one my my uni classes has totally opened my eyes to the world of packaging and the environment. so much is wasted!! let me tell you, if you didnt know, those so called "environmentally friendly" green supermarket bags are not so environmentally friendly. why you ask? because THEY ARE MADE OUT OF PLASTIC/HAVE PLASTIC IN THEM. plus!!! they will NEVER biodegrade. so in solving the problem, it has just turned into a bigger mess. so shame to the people who thought that platic bags were so bad, because they just created a monster bag to use just so they could dig into our pockets.

another thing i noticed is that costco packages their apples- plastic bag and that bread closer thing and all. that is such a waste. the little plastic bread closer cant even be recycled. so shame on costco. you dont need to package fruit and vegetables.

however, i did just satisfy my apple craving :D

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Disappointment

2010-03-14T23:26:00.000-07:00

sorry, but i just have to blog about this.

At this stage, some people really disappoint me and what makes it worse is when those people who are disappointing you mean a lot to you. it would be different if you didnt mind about those people, but i do care about those people so it makes the impact of this realisation ten times worse.

im sorry, but life just sucks.

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in other news. i decided that i dont exactly wish to persue the course of design, because i dont see it as a real career option. design is more of a hobby to me and while its really interesting i realised that i just have no real drive for it.

so i considered other options and whilst id like to be a doctor, i cant, because i hate science and im not smart enough XD so then i considered being a nurse, because i really wouldnt mind being one. though i wouldnt want to clean up after people... that just comes with the job XD soooo all in all i wouldnt mind being a nurse.. except for the fact that i hate science!!!!!

sooooo i still have no idea what i want to do :( but i do know that i want to work with people, but i also need those times when i just work in solitude... and i hate group work because sometimes the people you work with are just lame and dont do any work yet they get credit. anddd i also want a good enough salary that i can buy a good house, have a few rental properties and support myself (and a family if i choose to do so) with no money problems etc. i know all this doesnt happen overnight, but that's ultimately where i want to end up and i dont mind if im not rolling in cash and laughing my way to the bank every day, its just as long as i have enough to live a suitable, happy and healthy life! :D but thats where everyone wants to end up, isnt it? XD

...i also considered my life as a house wife XD if i was a house wife i would cook every day to find the best recipes for awesome food :D thats one of my new goals- to be able to make my own recipe(s) that actually tastes good and doesnt totally fail :) actually, i wouldnt mind being a chef either! but they work very very hard and i fail at working hard XD though miranda and vick told me that i would go insane as a housewife.. i realised that i probably would go insane... considering the time when everyone had uni and i didnt...XD

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Dum dee dum

2010-01-24T04:48:00.000-08:00

im feeling a bit weird at the moment and i want to do something, but i know it will be destructive and a very very bad thing to do :S it could also ruin everything ive worked so hard for.... but i want to do it, but i cant so its better if i dont! arghhh choices choices... so very hard to choose which path to take D: and even though you might know the correct one to take, that doesnt mean you want to stroll happily along it for the rest of your life and, right now, i want to take the wrong one XD but hopefully i will prevail!! :D why is it that people need hardship in their lives to keep themselves entertained? -.-

in other news, MIRANDA IS BACK!!!! YAYYY!!!! i cant wait to see her :D but i heard she is sick so i hope she gets better soon :D and then rach gets back soon-ish and i cant wait to have day out with them both :) its going to be too fun! :D

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"Ding Dong" go the wedding bells!

2010-01-16T04:00:00.000-08:00

soooo... i was sitting and procrastinating and thinking and now i feel bleh, because whilst things are about to be exciting and fun filled, i feel sad for some reason that i am not sure of :(

but anywayyyy....... WEDDINGS! they are really really exciting! and i feel like i am at a privilege to be able to witness/be a part of such a beautiful and awesome thing :D :D ...and the food is going to be awesome and i just love food :D

so i will congradulate Daniel and Lisa and wish them many many many years of happiness and joy together with very few hardships :) and at death, may they not be parted too long and be able to find each other easily in the afterlife :D

however, one thing thats quite scary about this wedding, which is tomorrow, is that............. I HAVE TO DANCE. see mother.. i told you i should have taken those dancing lessons! and its not just like a normal "dance how ever you like" dance, its a PROPER dance and its in front of pretty much EVERYONE. because garry is the best man and they have to dance and then i have to dance with him... omgosh this is going to be scary. SOME ONE PLEASE TEACH ME TO DANCE! D: i.am.so.shrewed. (did you know that a shrew is an animal thats like a mouse but not?..well i didnt know that) buttttt hope for the best for me because this is going to be hard to pull off :S

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Regret.. Kind of...

2010-01-09T07:45:00.000-08:00

The things I should not have gotten, yet some how managed to aquire:

in detail:

ohh dear! so today i was bored when i got home and rather motivated to take a look at my own collection of toys after seeing emporia's collection XD so i lined them all up and thought, "what a waste if i dont take a photo of it all" :D so i did! andddddd i also know that i have wasted a lot (and when i say a lot i mean SHITE LOADS) of precious money on them... though... i am quite proud of my collection and....... still i want more!!!! X.x

Youtube, Christmas and The New Year!

2010-01-01T03:46:00.001-08:00

so i was just youtubing random stuff and the links on the home page led me to this kid talking about his views on gay marriage and he was saying that its a sin and that god said its wrong bla bla. i was just thinking how does he know that god said its wrong when god did not write the bible and why is it a sin to be gay? sometimes i wish people would be more accepting to others, just because someone is a little different or likes something different to you doesnt mean that they are a bad person. i just wish that everyone would be more open minded about this kind of stuff. i truly do not see what is so horribly bad and sinful about two guys/girls loving each other. its how they want to live their life, so let them live it that way. who are we to say what is right and wrong?

here is the vid:

the kid also talks about evolution and its quite interesting to see how some people view the world and how it works XD

in other news, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! :D i hope the celebrations were awesome and everyone had a good time :) andddd i got a new computer! ..a 16inch beautiful laptop which is like most awesome "i dont heat up and burn your legs" machine! much better than toshiba "i have a shitty memory and i like to crash and delete all your work" computer XD

also, i was writing the date down today and it felt sooooo weird and strangely fulfilling to write 2010 instead of 2009. it also tripped me out and for a moment i had to pause my date writing because i forgot how to write the year. then when i remembered and wrote it down it felt really futuristic, because you know how in movies they always have the year as 201something??

andddd i hope you all have your new years resolutions in check because i have mine :D though im not going to tell anyone since i kinda see new years resolutions like a birthday wish :P

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Yearly Evaluation

2009-12-05T05:33:00.000-08:00

wow, i never knew how good it was to take the time and sit back to evaluate all the good and bad things that this year has brought! it made me realise heaps and heaps of things and i recon its done a world of good for me to do that :D

so what brought this on, you ask? well i was listening to the radio in the car and the host was talking about how bad her year had been and it got me thinking, has my year been bad? so i went home and wrote up a list of all the good and bad things this year :D

i dont know, i recon you all should try it, because it makes you realise things that you have, perhaps, taken for granted or things you havent noticed before or it can make you appreciate certain things?

give it a go, because you never know what you might find! :D :D

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Love is blind

2009-11-13T06:11:00.000-08:00

omgosh okay i have to blog about this because i find it really inspirational and you might think im gay, but whatever HAHAHA XD
i really admire how strong rihanna is and how wise all her words were in her interview about her incident :)

i find what rihanna says at the end to be too true. love is blind and people do get swayed by it.

i think this is really inspirational to me because i feel i can sort of relate? the situation, believe it or not, is a bit like being cheated on! if you watch the whole interview its the same sort of feelings you get towards the person in the wrong. i find that really interesting :D

what else is too true is that its really hard to get out of love. everyone who said that rihanna should just leave should know that its easier said than done, because they were together for 2 years, imagine the ties to each other that they built over that time. its extremely hard to just break those so easily. so i understand why she kept going back to chris brown :)

getting a little bit sidetracked... but in terms of girls falling in love (not sure about guys), i think that, at the very start, most people become something they are not, because they are trying to be the best girl for their guy and they have this fear that if they dont like every little thing that their boyfriend likes or if they go one step out of line, then its the end of the relationship. and no girl wants that for their first XD however,its until they learn that just because there are and will be differences and that they dont have to do every little thing their bf asks of them that they really realise what they have become and what a real relationship should include. anddd their guy should like them for who they truly are :) i recon, thats when a true relationship can begin and start to progress, because not everything can be rainbows and butterflies all the time! and dont forget that people are always changing so theres always something new to learn :D

so dont change yourself just because your bf wants you to be/do this or that. you are who you are and they should love you for who you are :) thats the reason they fell for you in the first place, right? :D

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To fake nails or not to fake nails?

2009-11-10T02:35:00.000-08:00

sorry, i cant blog much at the moment, but i was procrastinating/taking a break and reading The Age newspaper blogs and i found this to be too true:
"You know what acrylic nails are? False hope for ugly women.
Seriously, does any sane female really think getting the Mona Lisa or some diamantes encrusted on a plastic fingernail will increase their attractiveness?"
- click here to read the article :)

the way its all said is a bit harsh, but its kinda true, yes? no offence to those who wear fake nails or anything, but, really, tell me what the point of them is?? and while youre at it, tell me whats so bad about your own nails? personally, i do not like fake nails and i think they are stupid and a waste of time and money. yes, they were fun to play with when i was a little kid, but now its just like, who cares about your nails, its not like people are going to stare at your hands and say "OMFGOSH YOUR NAILS ARE SO UGLY". and when people wear really long fake nails, they scare the crap out of me.. they seriously look like claws and they also make me wonder, how does a person with nails that long do anything of the middle to hard labour category??

grow up and be happy with yourselves, because unless you want to go under the knife (and probably make yourself look even worse), youre stuck with it all :P so you might as well enjoy who you are!

but i guess that beauty truly is in the eye of the beholder ;)

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one GIANT COLLISION!!!

2009-11-05T00:58:00.000-08:00

today i realised that at this point in time, every aspect in my life is colliding together at the one time and i cant handle it! everything is driving me to breaking point and ive never had this happen before. theres so much to do yet so little time in which to do it in.
i have so much uni work to do, its all crashing down on my head stressing me out so much and i dont know what subjects i should do next year and then my family is falling apart and then i didnt get to see garry in like 4 days..im dying here!! XD

its everything colliding in one space of time that i cant cope with. is this what it feels like to burn out or is this just major stress to the max? because i have seriously never felt like this EVER! and all of you know how the only thing i was ever stressed about was vis comm folios and nothing else really phased me.. well this must be like ultimate stress??

how do you all cope with stress? i am in dire need of a solution to this because im never going to get my work done otherwise :(

The meaning of "i love you"

2009-11-01T19:27:00.000-08:00

~firstly, im going to say that dont think im retarded or lame for writing this, its just what i was thinking about and needed to get out of me XD

so i was doing my work and mulling over everything in my head when i thought, why do people say those three words a long while after they get together? i know they may be questioning if they truly love that person or not, but there is still love there, right? so why not just say it? how can you even be in a relationship without feeling some variation of love for each other, even if it is in its baby stage?

but, maybe, people want it to have value when they say it so they wait a while? however, who says that the words dont have value if you say it early? wouldnt you think that the value of the words would increase as time passes and you would both know that even though you both said it to each other very early?

i believe that you should say it as many times (within reason) to your partner because you never know what the future will bring. for all you know, your significant other could be dead tomorrow and the last thing you said to them was "goodbye". im not being morbid or anything like that, im just thinking that wouldnt you want your last words to them to be something like "i love you" rather that a blunt "goodbye, see you later"?

and im not telling you to say it millions of times over and over to the point where it becomes like the word "and", i recon saying it when you leave each others company, before bed or once or twice randomly during the day is enough. i guess when you choose to say it to your partner is up to you and as long as you say it with real meaning and sincerity behind those words its all good :) ..but i still stick to my own views of those words XD

lots of questions for you all to mull over, because supposedly, in most relationships, youre not meant to say "i love you" until heaps later. of course my messed up views on those words say different ;D HAHA

love is weird
i love you, i luv you, i &hearts you, i lov u, i lv u, 143, ♥

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Coz i feel like it

2009-10-31T17:48:00.000-07:00

omgoshh i feel like hardcore blogging!! HAHAHA i feel super happy right now :D i discovered i really really really like helping people, its just fun and i feel really good after :) and i love giving people advice and helping them through the hard times or just the little hiccups in life :D

on another topic, i need to get a job, lol.. i could.. but no XD i really cbf right now, i got so much socializing to do D: but my dad is all like "get a job, get a job" so he doesnt have to pay me because i can "provide for myself" what a sneaky bastard! so if you dont understand what im talking about, then youll know soon enough XD and no, im not a spoilt brat, theres a reason he has to pay me :)

and the song on mels blog is tres bien (however its meant to be, you all know how bad my french was XD). go have a listen! :D

i wish i had my own car, because at the moment i cant drive any of the cars that we have. i have to go and borrow the car from my grandmother and i dont see her that much :( i really really need to get my driving hours up and get my license to help my mum with car pooling and all that. you never know when an extra licensed driver will come in handy! ..plus im jealous of my friends who can drive HAHAHA XD

and im happy that i did photography :D because im quite proud of the photos ive taken LOLL does that sound like im up myself?? but seriously, i made my own display picture for MSN!

okay so the watermark totally wrecks it, but thats my new msn dp! :D

--this is the point in time where i stopped to go about daily life and then came back again XD--

i thought i would put this up too because i just found it while i was looking through photos and it made me smile!! :3

yepp my hands are strange, but get over it ;D

anddd thats about it for the time being :D apart from the fact that i just went to spotlight to buy things for my book and ended up spending $200+ :S very very bad.. but the good thing (kinda) is that my mum paid for it all even though i got $200 from my dad to pay for it all.. so i kinda did spend that much right? so i dont have to give him back the money since at the moment im broke? XD ahh but i feel guilty even though im going to end up asking him for money later.. how am i meant to feed myself?!?! HAHAHA XD well my plan was to bind it myself so i wouldnt have to spend heaps on professional binding, so, all in all, the plan has worked out :D now its just a matter of time to put the thing together!!!! i will be so happy after the 12th, it shall be time to get my social life back in action!! :D yayyy :D

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Random mumbling

2009-10-31T10:12:00.000-07:00

sooo right now im failing at sleeping and its 4am, what better time to blog heyy? :D
i decided to give my blog a make over since people have been complaining about readability since the writing was so small, i hope this is better? :) and yepp i know its all bright and cheery, i guess its the way i feel now :D not to boast or anything, but i think i have the good end of the stick! life is pretty much perfect at the moment and i wouldnt change a thing (minus a few hiccups here and there), but its very good for me and i really am super happy right now XD

okay well now that i think about it, a few hours ago i wasnt so happy, because i started questioning and wondering things and lately ive been in a bit of turmoil about life.. however, good friends have kept me afloat and put me back on track again and all of that has resulted in this cheery feeling and lightness :D so i guess what i really want to say is that im thankful to my friends for always being there for me and i hope ive been there for them when they are in need too :)

lately, its just been uni and attempting to finish off my projects and, of course, PROCRASTINATION. ohh my weakness. when i get into the working mind set its awesome and i can work my butt off through the whole day with only eating and toilet breaks.. its just a matter of getting into that zone. as you can see im failing :(

another thing resting in the back of my head is relationships. i know i have said this heaps of times, but is it only girls who are from private schools that are desperate for guys (minus a few.. yess you know who you all are XD)? i dont get it. if it happens it happens, so dont push it too hard or you become desperate, you know? then again, am i only saying this because i have my guy??? but i believe that it all just happened XD i hope im not one of those girls that chases guys because, i dont know, i just dont want to be one of those people. not to say that i hate people like that, you can choose what you want to do, im just saying that i wouldnt want to be like that myself.. if that makes any sense? andd if it doesnt and you get offended, then disregard this whole paragraph ;D

also, is it possible for a guy and a girl to be just friends? my mum says it isnt, but i dont know?? answers anyone? XD will the guy eventually start feeling something towards the girl of vice versa or both will start feeling something towards each other? who knows?? the love factor.. its confusing, though id like to try and understand it XD you know what i wanna know? what makes a guy/girl attracted to a girl/guy? what makes one person more attractive/lovable than another? why? how? what? who? which? XD confused much?!! HAHA!

andd now im incredibly sleepyyy and ready to nod off to la la land XD

and ohh shame, i have just spent a lot of money..like a lot... bad bad bad but hopefully it will have an awesome result, wish me luck!

and on a last and final note: life is sweet right now, so ill cherish it while it lasts :)

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Catching up :)

2009-09-04T22:00:00.000-07:00

wowww i havent blogged since june XD so today i think ill do some hardcore blogging ;)

well this morning i went to the new costco with 'family' and GARRY :D its actually not as big as i thought it would be and everything is pretty much the same price as normal supermarkets (minus a dollar or two) my mum said that aldi is still cheaper and she can buy most of the stuff for cheaper. i recon people shop at costco because they want to feel more american? and even though it is all in "bulk" there still isnt much difference with most items up for sale...cept toilet paper, thats a good buy XD garry and i also have never seen so many baby diapers and about 30mins after getting there we were already getting bored. its too big and the atmosphere..it just feels weird to me like there was something off about it, gloomy almost?

ohh i also got a haircut which is about timee!! ive been wanting to get a haircut since agessss but i wanted to keep the length for manifest :D but now its all chopped off and redyed the way i like it :D cept yesterday i got it cut and it wasnt layered, so i went back today and got it layered properly free of charge!! and my brothers haircut only cost $10!!! good price yeahh? :) i think next time i decide to get my haircut im going to dye it all back to black, jet black, and wait for a while while my hair gets back to healthiness thennnn dye it other colours when i think the time is right ;) so thats my plan for my hair :D

omgosh and manifest was fun, no where near as good as last year, but it was still good. come to think about it, it was kind of a let down, they could have done so much better, i recon there was a lot less people there this time because i know melbourne showgrounds is a biarch to get to XD but it was sooooo worth it to get this awesomeness photo:

and so its spring now and the weather is warming up, i cant wait for warmer weather so i can plan a beach trip with all my friends (except for the fact that i have no bathers since my dog ate them) :D

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Random Blabbing

2009-06-26T06:44:00.000-07:00

soooooo i decided to blog because im so bored right now. i have noticed that ive been swearing a lot more since i started uni, because i never said anything like damn, shit, crap (well i said those a little but still), fck etc etc. im trying to think of where all this language came from.. though i recon its quite obvious.. uni= new friends= spending time with them= getting used to their vocabulary= them influencing me and so on and so on. blehh i wish it wasnt like that =.= i actually like not swearing, does that sound weird? :/ damn i get so swayed by what people do, and there i go again, swearing my little head off pfftt.

ne ways, i started winter school just as everyone, like seriously EVERYONE, is now on holidays :( HOW SUCKY! so, my first week of winter school and i havent done any work yet except go out practically every day of this week:
monday: first class of uni
tuesday: went to see friends and shop for some odd bits and pieces
wednesday: second class of uni
thursday: DFO and IMAX/Transformers
friday: lunch and the hangover and dinner
so as you can see, my whole week has been filled with crap, not to mention that i believe i wont have any time to do anything on the weekend either. this is NOT a good start to winter school. though it could be worse, i could be doing more than one subject for winter school and lets just say that right now im getting back into the groove of uni life again :)

in other matters of my totally wonderful super dooper exciting life (HAHAHA), i need a job :( well my mum wants me to get a job... she told me to go back into that advertising stuff i used to do when i was in junior school, but i just dont feel like it. although it is good money, i just dont know.. i know i need a job, but, to tell the truth, i cant be bothered. maybe i can become a professional gambler since i feel like learning to gamble properly :D SOMEONE TEACH ME! please?? XD

and and and how sad is this, because drawing has become my homework its not a hobby anymore and does not relax me like it used to D: I HAVE LOST THE WILL TO DRAW *cries* how pathetic -.-' but on the plus side, i like playing a lot more games than usual and another plus is that i found my old Pokemon game :D YAY!! im just hoping that my DS wont run out of battery because im too lazy to charge it right now ;)

anyway thats about it for now because i felt like rambling about random stuff. i wonder if anyone could be bothered to actually read all the way to the end of this :P

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Bleh

2009-05-21T03:23:00.000-07:00

blehhh x.x i feel kinda sad right now, because i have so much work to do, but no work ethic to get it all done. like today, i wasted all my time watching tv lol =.= fail much??

though i got a pretty good mark for my folio.. i think this time its not going to be the same as the other 3 folios i have done at the last minute and passed with good marks. yepp.. im so going to die.

ne ways, at the moment im sick.. stuffed up nose, headache, sore throat etc etc *cries* damn this I CANT AFFORD TO BE SICK RIGHT NOW.

ohhh and i got my puppy :D Pocky (yes, after those glorious chocolate sticks, gotta love asian treats HAHAHA). shes peeing everywhere, shit everywhere too.... and my dad is being an ass waking me up at 6am to look after the puppy.. why doesnt he fking look after it, i need my sleep so i can concentrate in class.. makes me angry D:<

anyway pocky is cute so i guess that kinda makes up for her doing her business everywhere.. kinda.....not really =.=' and i would post a pic of her, but i cant be bothered to connect my camera to the computer for the moment lol.. laziness i dunno i feel really lazy right now XD

Procrastonating to the point where im so doomed

2009-04-06T23:04:00.000-07:00

so i just had to blog about this awesome song i found a while ago :D i just couldnt be bothered to write anything up because im lazy and am too busy in uni to blog that much ;D *gasp* i just realized i havent even been on ratemydrawings.com in ages O.o i need/want/should make a drawing on there before i become one of those people who try to make a comeback but never successfully do =.=' anyway back to the song :P ive been listening to some of their music and i must say, i am pretty impressed. its like a slightly more mellow version of RED (RED has a new album which im keen to get my hands on ;D). this is my kind of music :) and now i have an urge to play this bands music really loud while im in the shower + when my parents are home just to piss them off HAHA

but but in the meantime, i have a lame folio due in about 2 weeks and yes.. how did you guess? i did leave it to the last minute and i do regret it fully just like all the last folios ive had to do. i seriously will not learn from all of them *sighhhhh*. im so doomed lol.. especially because i dont know how long it will take to bind my stuff therefore i have to finish earlier than the due date and make it look okay and make sure its consistent work and bla bla bla bla. and you know what makes this worse.. ive only done 10 pages so far and ive had it since the start of the semester!! i swear thats major procrastination right there D:

..i just noticed a tab at the top of this that says "Monetize"..what the heck is that??

and i have decided that im perfectly happy with the computer i have because even though it is falling apart it still works fine.. cept the battery doesnt last longer than 10mins without the adapter. so no MACs and no VAIOs for me :P im perfectly fine with this computer (piece of crap thing).

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Bored

2009-03-21T16:34:00.000-07:00

im so bored right now =.= but i had this dream which goes:
i was sitting in class and then ivan came and i asked what he was doing on the weekend and then rachel(she doesnt even go to the same uni?? so wth) she came and said "yeahh what are you doing?" then ivan said "im going to a boat to cook".

and thats my dream and i woke up thinking what in the world do i dream about, but i swear most of the dreams i have include food.. is that possibly a sign? =.='

now comes the tricky question O.o mac or vaio? i just got asked that question and it reminded me that im looking for a new computer too XD but like.. vaio seems so bulky D: ahhhh i dont know, i dont wanna think about computers, i think im more likely to stick with my current one even though its falling apart -.-'' *cries* my poor laptop T.T

OMGOSH LOOK AT THIS COOL AS BUG I FOUND ON MY BUG SCREEN DOOR AT HOME :D

i dont know, i think i scared the cr@p out of it taking random photos everywhere O.o i think it was trying to tell me something when it started to half run away XD so then when i had finished taking photos, i put it on a leaf and put it in a pot plant because i dont think a screen door is the best place for it :P

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Uni and I GOT A JOB!

2009-03-18T15:28:00.000-07:00

okay so.. new drawing :D which is here: http://www.ratemydrawings.com/drawings/fantasy-art/448347.html if you would kindly like to go rate it a 5 for me MWAHAHA. but this.. drawing gave me such a headache.. seriously... pain in the a$$ =.= well more like firefox was a stupid little.. it fully errored on me and deleted all the work i had done on this so then i had to redo it all T.T oh the pain.. it really was pain. i hate redoing stuff because it always looks shoddier than what i had before *cries*

neways, whats happening at uni? not much actually XD just that ive become the BIGGEST PROCRASTINATOR ON THE PLANET!! oh actually, i take that back XD i know someone who doesnt sleep because they procrastinate so much, but i wonder if its actually like him procrastinating or its just.. nah forget it XD this trail of thought isnt going anywhere HAHAHAHA

anyway, i have to make sure that i do my product communication AND communication design homework before monday OR i wont be able to go with lotty to this magazine place? magworld or something?? XD and i feel really bad because i kinda havent been able to go places with her after class because ive been procrastinating so much =.=''

ANDD guess what XD i landed a job in tutoring XD like.. wth can you imagine me tutoring someone? im so going to kill them =.='' but you know whats even weirder..... is that ive been asked to tutor yr11 visual communication and design, no offence to the kid or anything, but HOW THE HECK DO YOU TUTOR FOR THAT??? =.='' like.. wth. what do i say to the kid?? i can just imagine myself tutoring him: "WTF YOU DUMBA$$ SIFF YOU DONT GET THIS?!?! ITS JUST A CUBE.. DRAW A FRICCIN CUBE AHHHHHHHHHHHHH". so yeah.. i start on Saturday at 10am *cries* there goes my saturday mornings... i cant even remember what i did in yr11. that was all just a bunch of crabbiness and fooling around. like.. i didnt even finish my last project for it/i annotated nothing and stuck stuff in LOL. however..... apart from all this....... its pretty good if not awesome pay XD better than what id get if i actually went to work in a shop or something :P so woohoo and cry for me XD (i think ill be too crappy and lose the job on saturday).

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The most pointless blog entry ever

2009-03-14T07:13:00.000-07:00

link to the drawing: http://www.ratemydrawings.com/drawings/manga-original/447485.html

sooo... im incredibly bored at the moment and sleepy and just to prove it to you all, i originally wrote bored as board wtf.. i need to go to an english lesson =.=

so on thursday, i saw rach and we were going to go to crust, but the lameness store wasnt open =.= so we ended up going to this korean place which wasnt that bad O.o i had some beef thing with rice, except i thought it looked like a smaller serve on the menu picture =.= so sadly, i couldnt finish it all D:

anyway, the picture up there, is my drawing that i just finished :D so go rate it LOL (preferably rate it 5 hearts ;D HAHAHA). and like.. dont pick on me for all the errors D: i wasnt trying to make it look correct or anything, i just wanted to draw a drawing T.T thus, the horrible bits and pieces in there.

anyway, lots of homework to do and i havent started.. kinda =.= so im off to bed and homework in the morning D: and wow what an incredibly pointless blog entry XD

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FIRST DAY OF UNIVERSITY!!

2009-03-01T23:29:00.000-08:00

first day of university and i already have homework!! but i dont think its that bad because its actually homework that im interested in, not that kind of homework you get from maths classes which you dont want to do and its going to be boring :P

so let me get started, i arrived at the uni and waited for cat to come, she was a mother of a late person =.= well not really, but it felt longer because i was breathing in cigarette smoke, standing in the sun with a jumper on and standing alone lol. then we just sat on the steps for a while talking and one of the girls, jenna, who i met at orientation day came and started talking too :D andd then i found out she was in my 2D animation class (bonus!). after a while we went into the PA building to find a toilet (i didnt go and surprisingly managed to sit through a 3hr class). thennnnn we saw a girl, lotty, who cat and fi made friends on o day anddddd guess what.... she was in my class as well (MEGA BONUS MWAHAHA).

finallyyy we got to class and basically, the whole class was just talking and watching animations and thinking about how we were going to create abstract animations. which is fine with me, because it was all really relaxing :P

ohh cat also saw this guy with a really cool hat on when we were sitting outside the building. i really wanted to try his hat on, but i think i would be a bit of a douche if i just walked up and said "your hat is cool, can i try it on??" XD then he just happened to be in my class as well.. what are the chances of that =.= so i was haunted for the whole lesson with wanting to try his hat on D:

so in total, i really enjoyed my first day of university :D though i wonder what tomorrow will bring and if i can make any friends in my two classes tomorrow O.o

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Just happy to be alive

2009-02-28T05:22:00.000-08:00

well about the linkin park song, miranda just totally burst my bubble of happiness when she said "that song has been out for ages". WELL IM SORRY, I DONT KEEP UP WITH A LOT OF NEW THINGS GOSH.

anyway, on to the point of this entry :) today my dad was driving my brother and i back from lunch (red rooster yay) and i was just staring out the window when i started to take notice of all the trees and other plant life around me. i dont know, i found it all really beautiful, but then there were the houses and cars and everything man made and for some reason, that made me feel quite sad. what i wanted to see was just green life everywhere, except there were all these man made objects disrupting the view. and seriously, im no insane tree hugging hippy person, but seeing all this not only made me feel really happy to be alive (because of all the green trees, not the man made stuff XD), but it also made me see what we are doing to our home.

i got a bit sidetracked there, but i just wanted to get the point across that i quite like being alive at this point in time :) i actually really want to become more involved in communities and i dont know, i feel insanely confident for some reason. i recon this is a good thing, because i feel so motivated to make friends, get work done etc... although, perhaps this is because of the 4 months of holidays O.o still, i quite like this feeling so i intend to try and stay motivated and stop procrastinating my life away! perhaps that is my new years resolution: to make lots of new friends, motivate myself and no putting things off till the last minute :) and yes, i know its a little late to be making resolutions now, but better late than never :)

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We Made It- Busta Rhymes feat. Linkin Park

2009-02-27T06:07:00.000-08:00

OMGOSHHHH sorry i have to get overly excited about this piece of news i have for you all....
A NEW LINKIN PARK SONG!!! well kind of, its a collab between Busta Rhymes and LINKIN PARK (kinda.. Linkin Park just features in it lol)! my all time favourite band, seriously XD the song is called "We Made It" :D *dances around to it* YEAHHYAHH SO GOOD! THIS IS WHAT REAL MUSIC IS MAN!!

and just to save you the trouble of finding it yourself heres the vid:

ahh i love it when Mike comes in playing the piano and Chester sings the chorus at the start. they get so into their music, its enthralling :D come on, you cant get better than this (except going to their concert live! i want to go again. Linkin Park, please make another glorious album so you will come and tour in Australia again D:).

anyway, i think i need to start reading some books or something, because over these 4 months or so ive gotten dumber -.- i kinda miss having to read school books and complaining about having to read them to my friends :( guess those times are over now that university starts for me on monday D: i think i should have appreciated school more, because the truth is that i miss it. i miss being spoon fed, i miss making fun of those stupid green plants on the wall (vick XD), i miss living the carefree life.

plus im so scared for my first day. what if no one likes me?? D; ill just look like some douche and who are in my classes??? T.T and on top of all that, i found out that a majority of the people in my course are either drinkers or smokers.. hooray for me, more lung cancer and brain damage for the world ehh =.=' so im hoping to find some friends that do not smoke, i dont mind if they drink, just NO SMOKING.

you know what, they should just ban smoking. i dont know why they havent done it yet. the government could give smokers 1-1.5 years in which they can use to quit smoking and then totally ban it all, because what good are these DEATH STICKS doing to other human beings? and yes, i know the government gets a lot of its money from people who buy cigarettes and bla bla bla, but FIND A LESS DESTRUCTIVE ITEM TO UTILIZE FOR MONEY THANKS. sheesh.

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Family problems are stupid

2009-02-20T05:42:00.000-08:00

just to start off, i love this photo :D its my ratemydrawings.com poster :) i miss the old days when RMD was just a small community and you could be friends with everyone..

well no need to post up all my family issues to the whole world, but i just have to vent some.. sadness? anger? ..hurt??? i have no idea and thats the problem. okay well i have a massive family problem, which i havent told anyone about (so if you think you know what im talking about, you dont), but i have no feeling towards it happening? should i? i think i should, yet i dont feel anything when i think about the problem. although seriously i cant imagine my life after the problem. i dont think anything will ever be the same in my family life again. if youre smart and have already worked out what the problem is, then good for you, just keep it to yourself :) i dont need people talking about it to me.

the thing is, i care about what is happening and i wonder what i could to do prevent it from escalating. but when i really think deeply about it, theres nothing i can do. i recon i will just ride the wave as it comes, however big or small ;D lets see where it takes me.

i think people have this ability to suck up their emotions at times like these. though, i wonder if my sister is alright since its the most important year of her life- year 12. i want her to succeed so much, but they just screwed her up. i cant believe them. how could they? what stupid, idiotic, fucking assholes to do this to her at the one time she needs them the most. WHAT KIND OF PERSON WOULD DO THAT? and theres my anger for you :) what i feel about the problem, i dont care how it effects me. its just my sister. i want her to get into medicine so badly, even more than i wanted her to be the school captain. it just makes me so ANGRY and INFURIATED that they just werent considerate enough to wait just that little bit longer. like WTF. JERKS.

well thats life for you. when you think youre flying it always finds a way to make you fall again. dont you just hate life? such a piece of crap. and at this point in time, im glad none of my family knows about my blog ;D ..well i hope they dont D: and thats the way i would like it to stay. i swear they stalk me on the internet -.-''

and to end on a happier note, if you even could be bothered to read all that, heres my lovable little Puddles :) i love her so much and she loves me (i hope :/ ) XD

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Oh joy..

2009-02-12T02:26:00.000-08:00

you see my doll and how her glassy eyes makes her look like shes about to cry?? thats what i feel like right now =.= and im pissed off for no reason at all D: seriously.. i really need some purple fanta to make me hyper T.T

not to sound like an emo or something, but mann i hate everything at the moment -.- and i had the worst cramps like last week, i seriously could have gotten my tubes tied if anyone had asked me to do it that day, it was so painful XD the worst pain ive ever had in.. well.. ever when it comes to stomach cramps O.o i think thats from not eating very healthy though XD you know what i wonder. why cant we just get our tubes tied then get them untied when we want to have kids again??? that would make life so much easier, but it just doesnt work that way =.= ahh the best parts of being a girl T.T

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Mcfaul and Mimic

2009-02-09T18:30:00.000-08:00

HOLY SHIZZZZ i just got the awesome Mcfaul (left, without his hat) and the red Mimic (right, without accessories) dunny!! but it cost me quite a bit.. $20aud each T.T which means... ONE MORE DUNNY UNTIL I HAVE FINISHED THE COLLECTION!! except im suspecting that the Doktor A dunny (the one i need) with ratio ?:?? is probably the hardest to come by. i recon the unknown ratio for it is 1/100 and i saw one on ebay which sold for around $200usd T.T and did i mention i just bought another 25 blind box case online?? so i have decided to sell the doubles that i have right now which are:
- Peskimo 2:25
- Jon Burgerman 2:25
- Uamou 2:25
- Doktor A green 2:25 x2
- Tado 2:25
- Shok 1 2:25
- Frames 2:25
- Triclops 3:25 x2
- Mimic black 2:25
***if you dont know all the names then go here: http://www.myplasticheart.com/c/0022OBB/Open+Blind+Box.html :) and im also definitely selling the Doktor A green and Triclops Dunnys

im going to sell them for $15 each or you can go to the shop i went to just outside balaclava train station (Hudsons) and buy them for $20 each HAHA :p they still have their boxes, cards, foil thing that it comes in and accessories, which are unopened :D though i kinda want to wait and see what i get in the box that i just bought. so there might be a retraction of the ones i want to sell BWAHAHAHAHHA XD so patience people :D if youre interested in purchasing, leave me a message on my cbox (the 4th X on the left hand side of this) ;D

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Tea for you, tea for me!

2009-02-06T06:09:00.000-08:00

wanna see a really cool photo of tea???? look no further because here it is:

so we went to this restaurant and my sister and i were taking photos of my little cousin because he is only 2-3yrs old at the moment and seriously cute as (plus he is a halfy, asian + european) :D anyway, a photo of him later, back to the story, i happened to be taking random photos of the teacups and then i was pouring tea and i thought "hey, why not take a shot of tea being poured" so i did, and i was quite surprised at the result. seriously, you can even see all the ripples and everything :D but dont look too hard down the spout of the teapot.. kinda gross.. im hoping that green stuff is only tea leaves and not some sort of grime or deadly green substance =.=' now i feel like taking more photos of tea :D

so to the photo of my cute little cousin:

aint he the cutest thing :) at dinner, he had his dad's camera and was taking photos of peoples feet under the table LOL XD *sniffs and looks up into the sky with tears in eyes* someday he will be just like me- taking photos of dirty teacups instead of feet ;3

anyway, i ate some fish because i felt like it.. probably the WORST CRAVING for food that ive ever had. though i get cravings for fish at really random times, but this sort of craving only comes about once a year or so. still... what the heck was i thinking?? seafood and me DO NOT MIX. though it certainly satisfied my craving. however, i would have liked a little bit more of the sauce on it to drown out the fishy taste XD so then i ate down a whole lot of duck, beef and chicken. but the chicken is always so dry, i had to mix it with the sweet sauce that came with the duck to make it a little more moist :D and as usual, the beef in black bean sauce was good as, because this particular restaurant makes it really well ;D but now im craving for singapore style hokkien mee which i cant get in australia *cries T.T*

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Its time!

2009-02-05T01:17:00.000-08:00

so the time has finally come when i can get out of my drawing block and its about time too. ive been craving to draw all this stuff in my brain that seems to be compiling and giving me daily headaches. but i just cant draw because it pisses me off too much when it doesnt look good when i draw it all down *cries* so after looking at countless manga drawings on DeviantArt to get myself inspired and attempt at getting a slightly better drawing out of myself, this is what im currently working on and i hope it looks good because i suck at anatomy D; however i must say that its a good start to all the clearly shoddy drawings ive been coming up with lately :) and by the way, this is a WIP (work in progress), which means its not finished.. duh -.- thats why you can see all the sketchy outlines and everything that isnt meant to be there so no saying "uhh its so fugly. it looks like some little kid, who is bad at drawing, did it, then put it in the toilet, did their business on it and stuck it up on the wall" well gosh.. no $h*t smart a$$, its NOT FINISHED YET psht =.=

i seriously cant wait for university to start. its going to be super fun ;D plus im going to see if i can visit my other friends at their universities, especially since i want to meet heaps of new people :D its going to be so fun, yet so stressful. no more teachers to spoon feed me all the information. i have to be totally self guided. *cough* im going to die this year..so much work T.T *cough*. another motive to hoping that university would just start already is that im BORED OUT OF MY BRAINS. when there is nothing to do.. i just sit in front of the tv or walk around the house aimlessly or make an attempt at baking a cake. sounds like fun? well it isnt D:

ahh i also found a love of orange juice ;D its good and healthy..i think :/ though its kinda making me want to drink less water and more orange juice which isnt healthy -.-' in the mean time, ill just do more exercise!!

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Ye Olde English Dunnys

2009-02-02T18:48:00.000-08:00

OMGOSH MY DUNNYS ARE HERE :D okay so i went a little crazy and bought a box of 25 blind boxes of the new series of dunnies and these are the ones that i got (less the doubles and doubles of doubles lol)!! as you can see.. those two spaces in the 3rd and 4th row are where i am missing two of the dunnys from this series *cries* i hope i can get them someday as those two that i am missing (Mcfaul and Dok A) are just about my favourite ones.. yet they happen to be some of the rarest ones T.T whyy cruel world why D: although i am extremely pleased that i have nearly the whole set ;D sooo im going to keep the doubles and sell them on ebay in a few years :P

omgosh and im learning how to drive!! my 3rd lesson is tomorrow and its scary as heck. i almost crashed into a pole and other cars and when im changing the gears of the car sometimes i forget about the road and look down to change it and then the driving instructor has to grab the wheel to make sure i dont smash into things. so yepp its going swell XD

anyway i have like one massive idea for a shop that i can open in another country 8D seriously i will make like the best income for it. because i was talking to my friend and i was told that >insert country name here< doesnt have that kind of shop. sooooo.... i will be proud to bring my secret shop over there some day ;D seriously, i recon i could make the best living off it and educate the >country< about these glorious goods that everyone should know about ;D so yeah.. no one is going to steal this idea psht!!

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Feeling down

2009-01-29T02:39:00.000-08:00

i feel a bit down at the moment -.- its too hot to think and i need to get out of the house and do something, but i cant because ITS TOO HOT. wth is with the weather.. 44 degrees yay... the upstairs of my house feels like a friccin sauna even with the air cooler on! D:
so yeah.. the head slows me down and makes me stick to chairs because of the sweat.. yum? XD

in other news, I BOUGHT A PACK OF 25 BLIND BOX DUNNY'S AND ITS THE NEW YE OLDE ENGLISH SERIES! WHY THE HECK DID I BUY IT *cries* i like wasted all my money... cept for the fact that this dunny is currently selling for $30+ on the internet WOO HOO (if i get a few mixed in with the blind boxes i bought)
well i cant find an image of it but its the one with the massive hat in this link http://www.domystore.com/houston/htx_invites/dun_eng.html
:D
so im hoping i get heaps of expensive ones :)

omgosh and i recently acquired my brothers black (its seriously so cool :D) nintendo DS by like the best deal ive ever made in my life so far XD i borrowed..more like permanently borrowed his DS + charger + any games i want to use for half my mcdonalds cheeseburger HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA seriously, was that good or what?? so ive decided to spend most of my life playing on "my" DS instead of the internet since my gay dad is so lame that he doesnt want to upgrade so we can have more internet downloads.

oh something random, my brother whacked me on the head with the edge of the car door lol.. making me more stupid -.- thanks little brother.. HOW AM I MEANT TO MAKE MILLIONS OF $$$ WITHOUT BRAINCELLS?!??!?!?? gah.. kids these days.

yup.. so i dont feel like writing anything else since my mood is all retarded and i kinda hate everything at the moment =.=
..too hot..

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My doll

2009-01-25T06:41:00.000-08:00

well i thought it was about time i should take a few snaps of my 57cm Super Dollfie :3 i bought her in Shinjuku, Tokyo, Japan and carried her all the way back to Australia =.= and let me tell you.. she is one heavy doll -.-

anywayy the shop in Tokyo where i bought my doll is like.. omgosh crazy. it is practically portrayed as a sanctuary for dolls or something, at least thats how i viewed it XD but i guess it was kinda cool ;D

so in the end.. after ages of trying to decide which doll i wanted i chose the new version of Yori *cough* i had a little help from my mother to decide because i seemed incapable of deciding on anything :D

so without further ado here is my doll :P although she needs a name still -.-''

shush because i know thats not a very good photo, but im so tired right now i couldnt be bothered to keep trying =.= i changed her eyes and hair and have yet to put this glossy stuff on her lips so yup, thats it XD i just wanted to show everyone my doll who currently resides in my closet until i can buy a proper case to display her in :)

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2009-01-24T21:51:00.000-08:00

NEW BLOG LAYOUT!! hooray :D i now have a super dooper awesome layout for my blog :) took me about.. two days to find this blog skin -.- but it was worth it ;D

okayyy so the new underworld wasnt that bad even though we already knew the ending. ahh my kind of movie :P perhaps it was only good because i had about.. no expectations from it? but omgosh.. the fighting scenes where like soooo insanely awesome :D so much blood and mythical creatures fighting.. thats what twilight should have been like XD

hmmm i dont really feel like writing much at the moment because im craving mcdonalds cheeseburgers so badly XD seriously.. i even dreamed about them *cries* SOMEONE BUY ME A BURGER!!

anywayyy i thought i would show you guys what im currently doing with my sad excuse of a life :D

so yeah.. drawing in progress XD although i should be getting ready for chinese new year *cough* money YAY!! *cough* which means i have more money to invest into buying MORE DUNNYS!!!!

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The start of a new day!

2009-01-21T14:30:00.000-08:00

what a wonderful start to the morning... i woke up at 7:30am lol *cries* and i went to sleep at around 1:45am.. thats not enough sleep T.T on top of all that i couldnt go back to sleep again after i woke up so yeah *sleep deprived* T.T so im hoping that ill get a good nights sleep tonight so i can be fresh for tomorrow as i have to go to an information session for my university course id like to enroll in.

i seriously cant believe i actually got into the university course i wanted! AND IN FIRST ROUND OFFERS YEAHHH MANN!!! I ROCK BWAHAHAHAHA. well not really XD but im just super happy (super happy?? wth *raises eyebrow* i sound like that gay man from the south park movie XD *sings* im super.. thanks for asking.. yada yada yada) that i got in. i thought i would have to go beg to get an offer for my course, because they only let about 36 year12 students into the course last year. so.. i was pretty worried and i thought that i would be doing accounting this year instead. so in terms of plans for the future.. i plan on doing communication design this year then next year pick up accounting to turn that into a double degree of communication design/accounting :D and if i cant do that, then ill just do accounting after i finish com design ;D why, you ask? because it makes me more employable and MORE MONEYYY!! duh.. isnt that why everyone does anything to do with school? for the money??

money actually makes me wonder if its corrupting our society. however, if there were no such thing as money and we only had goods, such as food, furniture, whatever takes your fancy etc, to show our value and to make a living on, life would be pretty hectic. so, perhaps, money isnt that bad a thing. but cant we all share and be one happy family?? no, because we are all greedy little... *trails off* XD

anyway, what does everyone think about all this stuff about 2012?? seriously, every sane person can see the signs that point to the fact that: the world is dying. we have used every bit of life out of the earth and now its time to pay for that. i dont know about everyone else, but the way things are going, it really seems like its time for the world start a new life-form to rule over the planet. OR maybe we might be invaded by aliens LOL XD but seriously.. before the world goes topsy-turvy on us all, i have a few things left to do. SO DONT DIE ON ME YET!

in other news, i have a really awesome video of a girl playing violin:

so yeah.. she made me pretty sad that i cant play piano very well and that i didnt keep playing the violin lol -.- but i pretty much sucked at violin because i never practiced. soooo that would have been a lost cause XD though id love to be able to play as good as her in the vid :) she has looks, personality and mad skills what more could you want?! XD

nothing more to say.. so...uh.. *cough*

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Drawings, quotes, art

2009-01-21T04:24:00.000-08:00

so after days of working, dexx and i have created this drawing:

*points up* :D hooray for us :) of course it looks a lot better on the website and its larger too ;D in my opinion i really love how it turned out, especially since i suck so much at portraits D: anddd i recon it has some of both of us in there :P eg. the green eye for dexx and the kinda emo lookingness for me :D if you want to go see the drawing properly you know where to find it ;D and sorry for watermarking it but i seriously cannot stand people poaching drawings from me or anyone else for that matter. just seriously.. why? would people steal someone elses drawings. its just silly on their part because they will never learn how do draw properly and it just shows how untalented they are. gosh.. so yeah, sorry, blame it on the stealers!!

anyway. i went out with my friend today and bought more stuff didnt need, except.. i didnt buy anymore Dunny's because im good :D .................... *cough* and theres a new series coming out *cough* =.=''

so instead of buying a Dunny i bought another Munny.. WITH A MOHAWK!!! i also bought a Fatcap just because i saw the same design on the internet -.-

seriously, the internet stuffs with my brain. i was watching youtube videos of cupcakes yesterday or the day before for about the whole day and it like programed me into wanting.. no, thats an understatement.... CRAVING INSANELY for a cupcake with lots of soft icing.. so my friend took me to this cupcake store and she friccin let me buy a $4 cupcake -.- but it was soooo good :D now im craving cheeseburgers from maccaz and this grape drink that has a blue cartoonish looking dude on it LOL XD

ohh we also went looking for B@arbricks for my friend.. but they were all the ones that we have already seen/bought in singapore. so no luck there. we also found the most awesome art book store and i found one book that had clothes, toy and other such designs that the company created but it was $100 *cry* why cant i be rich T.T i really would have liked to own it and put it in my art book collection, which currently consists of 12 art books and 3 magazines :) its small, i know, but its a start! then i found this art book with all kinds of gothic art in it and for only $50!! i really really wanted to buy it. but ive spent so much already and i want to buy the new series of Dunny's that are coming out. so i had to refrain myself from buying it *cries*. it would be such a beautiful book to add to my collection...

oh and i forgot. i found this really good quote for our drawing:
Don't cry when the sun is gone, because the tears won't let you see the stars. ~Violeta Parra.
i dont know, i thought it was good because its everything that our drawing has in it :)

also, when i found that quote i also found one about jealousy that i quite liked:
Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that you do not have value. Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative - self-value. If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved. You will always think it's a mistake or luck. Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within. Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences. Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security. Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them. ~Jennifer James.
i thought this quote was quite true and very helpful in some ways. and it really compelled me to want to change who i would get jealous at and why. i dunno XD some random mumbling from me HAHAHA XD

anyway, thats enough from me for the time being. tomorrow i might be go to see the new Underworld movie with my sister and brother (though i dont have high hopes for it) and to get myself that cheeseburger :D

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In the beginning...

2009-01-19T23:20:00.000-08:00

Well there's a first for everything eh?
The start of my first actual blog on the internet :D
I've never had one before... Seeing as how i have my DeviantArt account and Facebook to use as my blog writing space, I have never had the thought to actually get one, let alone need one.
Come to think about it. I havent written a blog entry in like.. *gasp* MONTHS O.o i know.. disgusting on my part D: how could i bare to leave stalkers and perverts out of my private life???

so anyway i guess i should tell you what i did today so far...
it all started out as i got forced out of bed to go to get my eyes checked.. yes i am getting blind and, yes, i cannot read red on the board *is half colour blind*. so that was at around 9:30AM IN THE MORNING... like wth dad.. why would you do that to a poor girl trying to get some sleep (even after she knew that she would be woken up at that time yet still went to bed at 1am reguardless..but that's not the point -.-)?? seriously. ever since school finished.. i dont wake up until around 11am-12pm and i dont go to sleep until 1-2am. and i just realised that is a heafty lot of sleep right there :/ maybe im catching up on all the sleep that i have missed throughout the whole of yr12 O.o but too much sleep is really bad for you, no?

well after being sidetracked a bit.. im going to get glasses. yes you heard me right... beautiful glasses to make me into a pretty princess =.= oh the joy... im a bit iffed with glasses because they all look disgusting on me- like a rabbit got run over by a car then shat everywhere, then got flung into the air and landed on my face. so the short explanation is me + glasses = rabbit run over by car and shat its self on my face (HAHA a bit of maths for you XD).

then after that, i went home to my cute little doggy waiting for me :3 actually im half expecting something more like a tipped over and dug in rubbish bin from her -.- but hey.. shes a dog and im the human.. more like shes the master and im the slave =.= psht. anyway.. i came back to find my dog and that my friend couldnt have lunch with my sister, brother and i. so poo on her. but i guess i got happy again when i bought more friccin Dunny's (*cries* ive wasted so much money on them that its disgusting T.T) and to just tip that price up a little more, i even decided to buy a Munny and some other collectible toy that i dont even know what it is D: as my brother would say, i am an over consumer (id say im more a money waster and a hyppocrit for telling others not to spend so much money on trivial things) =.=

i cant be bothered to write anymore since my country is melting in stinking heat which causes fires everywhere. so ill write more later, thus, concluding my first entry!!

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